The Days I Held On: A Year of Witnessing, Caring, and Staying

This blog is a deeply personal memoir — a quiet collection of reflections written over the course of more than a year. Told in 32 short entries, these pieces trace the journey I shared with my father during his battle with cancer. In these pages, I write about moments both heavy and tender: hospital visits, sleepless nights, glimpses of fear, and flickers of strength. I stayed by his side — through confusion, courage, frustration, and love. These are not just medical updates or memories. They are the emotional footprints of what it meant to be present. To endure. To hold on. Every post here is part of that journey. There are no numbered chapters, but if you scroll through in order, you’ll walk with me — step by step — through a story of staying, witnessing, and remembering. This is not just what happened — it’s what I saw, staying.

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Again…..Started Diagnosis

On One Saturday afternoon in the starting weeks of April, I and my father were dining at my aunt’s house and came back after spending some time there. After a few hours, my father started feeling discomfort. He started feeling Nausea and Vomiting and it was so horrible as it continued to midnight 1:00 AM. On that day we thought that it might be because of food poisoning and he will be alright within a day or two. The next morning he went to the office and when he came back, he said he was experiencing the same problem it continued for a week, and every day, I used to take him for a short drive on a bike for relaxation. So, that he would at least feel comfortable, and if he was having nausea, then we would purchase soda and he would drink that slowly. So, everything that was troubling him inside used to come out and he would feel relaxed. Few days he suffered a lot, and sometimes, he wouldn’t sleep all night because of continuous vomiting. The worst part was we couldn’t continuous...

Immediate ……. call

My father couldn’t control his pain, even though the nurses gave him diclofenac injections. My uncle and aunt came after getting admitted to the hospital. After a while, my father started vomiting the liquid, which was in green color and he couldn’t stop vomiting too (it is a bile — a fluid that is made and released by the liver and stored in the gallbladder ). So, doctors have decided to place a Nasogastric (Ryles) Tube — anything that would come out of the mouth, will come through this tube and be collected in a bag . So, that he wouldn’t feel completely drained out by vomiting. His pain and bloating remained still and the fluids and necessary medication have been on. The doctor came the next day and said ‘ It is abdominal adhesions and abdominal adhesions may cause intestinal obstruction ’. These can occur post-surgery and the exact cause behind these occurrences can’t be certain. The doctor also said that let’s treat with medications...

What I Saw, Staying

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