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Bewildered…….But

 I was baffled completely after learning the further treatment procedures. It was in the last week of July when we came to know about this. As I earlier said, I actually had come to the home before lockdown, to get all the documentation done for my MS abroad. I hardly had 1 month then, to apply and get the visa in order to start my postgraduate studies in a foreign university.

I was not in my senses at least for a day and also tensed because I left my job and other job offers for this. I had planned for this long back but it got delayed for some reason. Before the surgery, I didn’t give much thought to it, as I felt I could figure it out once the operation was done.

To be honest, I wanted to pursue postgraduate studies in India. But, it’s my father’s push that turned out to be a motivation for me to pursue abroad. So, even before surgery, my father said, don’t stop your arrangements for onboarding flight for master’s education. I didn’t care about it back then.

Now, it’s time for me to decide or take a call on the next steps. There are two options left ahead of me :

Go ahead and onboard the flight to land in a foreign institution

Stay back and postpone the plans and take care of my father.

I thought in a way that — If I had chosen option 1, I would start my studies but I couldn’t concentrate by thinking of my father, who would be back in India. I couldn’t stay at peace.

— If I had chosen option 2, the plan might have been delayed for some time, or don’t know whether it would happen or not. I thought like, he had done a lot for us and sacrificed many of his wishes for us, so why can’t I stay back and take care of him? I thought that, if I had taken care for 1 or 2 years, I would be much happier in the coming 5–10 years (some people might judge this as selfish) but I was clear in my mind that ‘Nothing is more precious than parent’s love and selfless guidance’.

So, I chose option 2 but my father wasn’t happy (who would like their son to halt their plans for them?)

It’s easy to quote this decision in this blog but I struggled a lot to come to this decision as it affects my career in all possible ways. But, I stood still and stubbornly took my call.

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